Currently Reading: Exodus 3
10 So now, go. I am sending you to Pharaoh to bring my people the Israelites out of Egypt.”
11 But Moses said to God, “Who am I that I should go to Pharaoh and bring the Israelites out of Egypt?”
I must admit, there are times that I sound like Moses.
Like when God calls me to do a seemingly daunting ministry work, self-doubt creeps in and more often than not, I find myself asking questions like “Who Am I, Lord?” or “Can I even do that?” Sometimes, I even go so far as to remove the thought of obeying altogether and tell Him, “I can’t Lord. I can only do this much.”
I remember often saying these things when I joined the Kids Ministry at church. The thought of speaking in front, albeit to children, gripped me with such fear, I began to doubt myself. But then, I find myself comforted as I read God’s answer to Moses.
12 And God said, “I will be with you…”
God did not answer his question directly, but instead assured him of His presence.
I realized that just like Moses, I have been looking inwardly for strength. And when I do, it results to nothing but self doubt and utter lack of confidence. Introspection has made me so self aware. I feel as though I have been weighed, I have been measured, and I have been found wanting.
And the truth is, I am in wanting.
If we look to ourselves, all we get to see are the things that we lack. But just like Moses, God calls us to look to Him, to fix our eyes on Him. He who is “the author and perfecter of our faith...” (Hebrews 12:2) He pens our paths and perfects that which we lack.
In His presence, I am made complete. And so when I do His work, I need not look to myself but hold on to the promise that He is with me. And I can be confident because I know that He who promised is faithful.
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